Probably this is going to be one of the most controversial post ever. After a full week of reading my law books and cases, I got tired and decided to open my laptop, looked at my external hard drive and saw random photos of the past. Funny how my external hard drive kept a folder worth 8,000 photos of the past. I thought it is going to be an emotional suicide when I start opening the folder, but then after clicking from one picture to another, good memories came back. The memory of friendship, the happy times. A friend of mine asked? Did I ever regret letting go of the longest relationship that I had? My answer is a big smile with a convincing NO, did I just mentioned convincing???
That does not mean that I am just convincing myself of the fact that I am not regretting it but honestly, I have already convinced myself not to dwell on the heartaches and linger on the memories. I have taught myself to look passed the beautiful moments as a beautiful memory of someone who made me who I am today.
What if I will bump into my previous love? What will I do? Actually I already did, it was weird, it was crazy but there is one thing I am happy to say, we are okay. The love is no longer there but the friendship remained. I am happy that me and my previous love remained as friends. Some would say that if two past lovers will remain friends after breaking up, it is either they are still in love or they never were in the first place. My choice would be, none of the above because our love was great and strong through those wonderful years but what we had was our building blocks of friendship, we still love each other but not the same as before. We still care for one another but not as the same as before. There is no more spark or flame that we will flicker in the end, all that is left is pure respect for our past, for all the things that we have shared.
That’s what makes this old love special, we remained as friends with no inhibitions and strings attached. It is still a beautiful thought to be sharing what goes through your day to your friend.
Yes, I did cry last January because of him, not because I still have feelings for him, but because I thought I had lost my best friend but after all this time, I am glad that I still have one and he will always be a big part of me. It is amazing to know that someway, somehow he will always be a phone call away when I needed him. That amidst all those long years together we are still solid as friends. Thank you for being part of my life and thank you for staying.