as I end 2011…

2011 has been one hell of a roller coaster ride, though 2010 was very fruitful and amazing, I guess it all came down to 2011 where heartaches took the number 1 spot for this years countdown.  I may say everything has its purpose and I think I will begin to say that 2011 was not really a good year for me.

Let me sum up my 2011 in 11 ways;

11.  2011 became a year of MONEY, gadget and spending a lot for me.  I am suppose to save this year but all these problems makes me spend some more on clothes and stuff that I already have but I think an investment for 2011 is quite a good thing, got my DSLR camera back, a new phone, an ipad2 for work, blogging, fashion and social networking, additional hard drives for personal files and yes the techie side of me came back.

10.  SHOES, this year is all about shoes, I can’t stop buying new shoes, shoes and more shoes hahahaha!!! Maybe having a career change made my lifestyle changed as well.

9.  2011 was more on FOOD, gained weight ALOT!!!! seriously, I’ve had the best meals for this year.  All the food trips and dine outs were worth it despite the fact that we were able to spend 14,000 in a special secret meal for one night, oh my!!! that was truly an experience worth sharing.

8.  Travel, yes was able to go home, spent 2weeks time with family, go out of the country and had fun.  Travel was always my priority and I hope I can travel more next year and the upcoming years to come.

7.  PEOPLE.  I’ve met a dozen of amazing people this year, maybe having a new face on your friends list is refreshing to begin with.  I am totally happy I was able to meet more blogger friends in Cebu, met them in Bangkok and most especially had fun tagging photos and twitter mentions despite the long distance relationship hahaha! And yes having a BBM, iMessage, Viber and Whatsapp helps a lot….

6.  Career change.  I thought I will stay as a teacher forever but something came to my surprise and I do not know what has gotten into me why I accepted it but everything changed entirely.  I would say 2011 was highly productive of me, keeping me busy with work thus all the back logs in my blog and absenteeism in twitter, yet work makes me happy.  Isn’t it weird?

5.  Family.  Though miles apart, my relationship with my mom became stronger and stronger.  Changes are constantly amazing and her acceptance of everything is really the best gift ever, nothing can change that.  Talking to my brothers intimately about family issues was such a big thing but I am glad we are more bonded than ever before.  And being strong for someone I dearly LOVE this year is something I do not want bargain with anyone.  It makes me happy to be happy for my FAMILY!

4.  Fears.  I conquered my fear this year, well not entirely all my fears just some of them.  I finally got inked despite the urge of getting scared, knowing my fear of loosing someone has been tested as well but at least it makes me learn more and understand things than ever before.

3.  PARTY.  2011 became a year of party and celebration, I just don’t know why but  I know for sure I am a home buddy and prefers long and quiet coffee breaks with friends than late night partying but my body seemed to have gotten used to  all the nonstop dancing and margaritas!

2.  Beauty.  I have made a promise to take care of my hair this year and it came true.  I had the luck of knowing a lot of pretty young girls who can prettify their selves in just a couple of minutes, but beauty does not need any hard core colored make up or concealer.  It only needs inner peace and a positive outlook in life.  That’s all that matters, being happy and being at peace.

1.  HEARTACHES.  As much as I do not want negativity to end my 2011 but I have to admit it, this year has been so crappy with negative issues, situations and a lot relationships ended up very ugly.  Lost a lot of people I trusted before, realized who my real friends are and most especially knowing deeply the person whom you thought you have known before.  I think I was too kind and was too giving for 2011, I was thinking that I have wasted my energy, my ideals, money, love, care for everyone I love the most but I end up with nothing but disappointment, being hurt, betrayal and most importantly I end up with regrets.  Just regrets in giving too much, I was too cautious with not giving everything for LOVE but I failed in FRIENDSHIP.  

But despite of all the bitter endings and regret, I am happy that 2011 is going to end tonight.  I am excited for 2012 to come, and what ever happens, if it is really the end of the WORLD?  (I wish not!!!) I would like to say, THANK YOU to everyone who made my 2011 A LIVING HELL!!! you all made me stronger, wiser and a better person.  And to everyone who has stayed for me no matter what, THANK YOU for LOVING ME until the very end.  I couldn’t ask for more.

HAPPY 2012 everyone!!! Enjoy your NEW  YEAR!!!!

bring me some colors…

I’ve had a lot of hair color changes for the past years and nothing compares an awesome hair change if you are with your favorite person in the world.

We took a short visit at the Salon to have our hair treated then we decided to have our new hair color.  I was too wild to choose my shade since I wanted it to be blonde, but I was also thinking of Ash Gray hahahhha!!! call me weird but 2011 has given me the weirdest things of all.  I feel like a rebel if I opted for Ash Gray so for a safer choice I went for blond as the highlights and light brown as the darker shade.  Guess the treatment and beauty stopover paid off because it felt like I was the most beautiful person in the world, thus the entire reason why we decided to go out and PARTY!!!  Bring on the spanking HAIR COLORS!!!

dress: Forever21

hair: Bangkok

cardigan: Bangkok Fashion

clutch bag: CLN

shoes: Figlia

happiness: 100%

26 years and still getting awesome!!!

Okay I know I promised that I will be blogging again last November but as always,(can somebody slap me now!) I always break my promise and I hate doing that.  Thus part of my New Year’s Resolution for 2012 is to blog again, now that my workloads are now organized one by one, I am happy that I can spend time in tweeting again, blogging and even uploading my photos in Facebook.  Yes even my Facebook has been neglected this year.

Most of you know that last November 23, was my birthday, I would like to thank everyone for your greetings and love. So what did this year gave me for my 26th year of existence?  I would say pretty dramatic but then I am happy to say that I have reached the age of 26 with an awesome experience.

Not so long ago, I was putting my plans in a journal.  Getting married at 24 years old, having a baby and by the age of 26 and 28, I will be a happy mom doing groceries.  But things change, I am still kicking my ass at work and building my life, I still spend, spend and spend my money…which I love spending by the way.  But my hard earned cash has given me so many insights about life.

What I am proud at 26 is being independent and strong.  With my experience I am happy to be living away from my parents, working my ass out, paying my bills, making sure I have enough money to get by the month and looking forward for my future.  I couldn’t ask for more??? Maybe a life changing experience again soon?  We might not know it, I am not in a hurry, thus I am enjoying my youth at living life to the fullest, I am writing down my story every day so that I can fearfully tell my tale when I get older and older each year.

Yes dear blogger friends, every year I believe we don’t get older, we just GET AWESOME!!!!

Enjoy my birthday photos…

top: Bangkok

floral pants: Promod

shoes: Figlia, Cebu

hair: Bangkok

yes that is a happy birthday to me!!!

love the food at Sunrise Tacos!!!

more and more food!!! (the very reason why I am getting FAT!!!!)

Visiting Penang

This is already an overdue post since I was not able to share with you my little adventure in Malaysia.  Last August, I was able to go visit our facilities in Malaysia and spent time enduring the quiet place of Penang.  Contrary to Bangkok’s city lights and happy districts, Penang is somewhat a perfect place to take time to think and relax.  Unfortunately there was no time to relax for us mostly for me, I was up around the clock checking on emails, all the updates and of course trying to enjoy my stay.  It was just a short trip but maybe someday if I get to retire and go somewhere special, I would be including Penang for sure not only because of its quite beach/mountain side scenery but everything is just serene and special.

top: F&H

skirt: Forever21

shoes: Jeffrey Campbell

shades: Marc by Marc Jacobs

smile:  Cebu’s pretties smile :)

Life is Sweet… (I got inked!!!)

It took me a week to decide about this, as most of you all know, I am really afraid of needles thus getting inked is out of my bucket list.  But as the saying goes; it takes pain to go through and survive the deepest pain as well.  Out of the ordinary I have been crowded with emotional tribulations that has been hurting me so much.  This pain deep inside my heart is not about love, life or anything, but this is even deeper, this is the kind of pain that is lying beneath the roots of being me.

After browsing through a lot of tattoo sites, trying to think of the best designs.  While contemplating on having a little butterfly or a heart shaped love in my wrist.  Or maybe the word “TRUST”, it took me a week to decide and during the last two days before I got inked, I made a final decision.  I wanted to put TRUST, because I believe I have super deep trust issues and until now I am still having problems with this.  It is still hard for me to TRUST because I still have this pain inside my heart, this bitterness and rage that is waiting to explode at the right time.

Yet the day before I decided to get inked, I saw a design that really took my attention, I forgot about TRUST, so I had to search for handwritten designs and just think of a perfect line, phrase or word to put.  But then something happened, a random phrase came into my mind and there it happened.  Putting the phrase ” Life is Sweet “ describes me very well, this phrase has something to do with  my life, my positivity in things and how I am grateful for this wonderful life.

Indeed LIFE IS SWEET, I would like to thank my cousin for writing down these phrase and getting the perfect stroke for the letter S that looks like an infinite sign.  I am happy I was able to survive this session and yes nothing, nothing can take this SWEET LIFE from me.

stencil design before the session…

not backing out…have no FEAR!!!

holding tight…

it’s just the beginning…

ouch!!! that really stinks…it hurts…

almost done!!!

and the finish product is….

LIFE IS SWEET :)

 

oh oh BANGKOK

Even though I am no longer taking my time in the morning in  taking some outfit shots but it didn’t stop me from being mesmerized by the beauty of Bangkok’s fashion.  Looking at the crowd every Saturday in Siam Paragon brings great pleasure to my eyes.  Nothing can be as vibrant, colorful and stylish than these Thai Fashionistas.

These were old photos taken last July when Harry Potter was out in the cinemas.  I made it a point to wear the most casual and comfortable outfit as possible besides of having my period and also I admit, I am not a big fan of HP Series; but I did enjoyed the finale.  And guess what makes this special day unique??? While I was browsing around the people passing by, I saw one familiar face.

The guy who makes all girls go crazy over him,  Mario Maurer’s breathtaking smile and the most angelic face I have ever seen made my heart stopped for a second.  No wonder everyone is going crazy in love with him.  Yes darling!!! DROOL!!!! Oh oh oh Bangkok!!!!

Bitter October, Sweet November

My mind is twisted and I cannot think properly, not because I got my heart broken by a man but the worst thing happened.  It got broken by a friend, words cannot explain how I feel today and will feel in the upcoming days.  I will never forget how October ended and my November started.  By this I am sharing these quotes to let you understand how I am feeling….

 

We have many acquaintances in life, and we quite often think these people are true friends. But friends…real friends are few. Learn to know the difference

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It’s really sad when your closest friend, becomes the most unknown person in your life & ends up being the stranger you pass on the sidewalk without a glance

I can see now, my eyes are open. I can see you more clearly now. You are not the person you pretend to be

I’m sorry… I didn’t know friendships had an expiration date on them.. Next time at least warn me

Congratulations. I hope what you’ve gained is worth it for what you have lost.

Once a liar, always a liar. They will never change

Ever notice how certain people blame everyone else for their problems in life yet never realize that they are the common denominator in all of it??

Time doesn’t heal wounds, sometimes sorry doesn’t fix it or make it OK…sometimes it’s really the end..

everyone always says that time heals all wounds…but what happens when the wound is just too deep?

But then!!!! Everything happens for a reason… What is important is I am moving on?  I did my part, if there is no reason to explain then so be it??? I am just thankful that I am living a happy, wonderful, great, fantastic, FREE and SWEET life…no pretensions, no lies… just REAL and AUTHENTIC LIFE…

So let us go ahead and say…

Kisses xoxox

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